2017 – My Year with Divine

I remember sitting in the Multi-sensory room with my son and telling Natasha (a lovely nurse from Rainbows Hospice) how much I’d felt so grown up in the past months. That is what 2017 was mostly about for me – Growing Up. Not that I’m any older than 27 but I had to learn a lot of things and learn them fast in 2017. The responsibilities that come with motherhood are in themselves daunting but then sometimes you get a bit more than you bargained for.

At the end of the year, most people tend to take stock. Stock of their lives, achievements, successes and even failures. Businesses balance their accounts and prepare for the new year. Then lots of resolutions are being made for the new year, many of which never see the light of the day. Anyway, this is not a post about resolutions…

I started the year with so much expectations and hopes, I was already about 2 months pregnant at the start of the year and was looking forward to being a mum. So it was a bit of a surprise when we went for our first scan in January and the baby was diagnosed with an inoperable neural tube defect. I kinda blanked out of it and felt like all the words the doctor was saying was from a movie or just wasn’t for me.

And so began my 2017 journey… A journey with so many decisions, a journey that drew me closer to my source – God. Sounds clichĂ© like but that’s the simple truth. The typical first response to such news is a lot of prayers for healing and/or change of circumstances but we were at a point where we understood that nothing happens to us without God being aware and thus our prayer points were more guided. Instead we prayed for understanding of the situation and God’s word for the baby’s life.

We had a lot of support and guidance from some brethren that we strongly believe God put in our lives for times like these. They joined us in praying along and God gave us a word which only got clearer a lot later down the journey. Romans 1:20 – “From the creation of the world, God’s invisible qualities, his eternal power and Divine nature, have been clearly observed in what he made. As a result, people have no excuse.” And thus birthed the name Divine.

At every scan, we were reminded of the uncertainties that lay ahead but we reminded ourselves of the greater purpose of God. We went ahead to prepare for his grand entrance against all odds. The prognosis was basically that he might not survive full term or birth. Therefore, I was scheduled for an induction because the doctor said he would not be able to go into labour naturally as he was missing the hard bit of the skull which presses down.

And thus began the miracles. My due date was 15th of July, an induction was scheduled for two weeks after 29th of July. Everything was medically being planned but little Divine decided to break all the rules. As his doctor fondly said “He didn’t read the books”. My water broke on the 9th of July and Divine was born naturally on the 10th of July, 2017.

Newborn Divine

As joyful as I should have been, I felt a taint of sadness in not knowing how long he had to live. The journey continued from the hospital to Rainbows Children’s Hospice with lots of visits from medical professionals – doctors, nurses, midwives, health visitors, consultants and carers. Indeed God sent us all the help and support we needed, medically, physically, emotionally and most of all spiritually. We kept trusting God’s divine purpose over every medical diagnosis and prognosis.

Little Divine didn’t have any hope medically but he defied all medical odds for 15 weeks (almost 4 months). He needed almost no medical intervention from birth even with the neural tube defect. Breathing, eating, weeing, pooing, gaining weight all happened in their strides. And we eventually went home after about 6 weeks to experience our everyday lives.

Content baby
#Diviboy, Just after a feed

Bus rides, church visits, business trips, going to the office, shopping and lots more happened. We soon got into a very regular routine with Divine and he brought so much joy. Such a peaceful and cooperative little beauty except when hungry. He was a sucker, oh you should see him suck or stick his tongue out with his head full of curls.

Tongue out #chumchum

But then came the time when his journey on earth was completed. He didn’t suffer at all. He just grew tired and after just under 48 hours in full-time medical care he drew his last breath on daddy’s chest at about 11am on the 24th of October, 2017 to be with his heavenly daddy. Many would class this as “Gone too soon”, we say “A purpose filled life”. 3 months of parenting, 15 weeks of miracles and forever in our hearts.

My memorable moments of 2017 were the times I held you in my hands, but now I’ll hold you in my heart forever

2017 might hold all the memories of our Firstborn Son but we’ll spend the rest of our days running with the baton he has left. The legacy of a Greater Purpose. One of which is the understanding that we already have enough evidence through creation to see God’s eternal power and divine nature and as such no body has any excuse. The only problem we face is giving up control of our ‘self’s. And this goes across board – Christians or non-Christians alike, Self-sufficiency. We simply ignore the bigger picture.

It is all a matter of faith and since it is the same God that created us that breath His life in us, then we have the innate ability to believe and commit to His ways. This is the journey I am on now. Not a journey of self discovery, nor a journey of success, not a journey to make something out of my life nor a journey to be someone great but a journey to be conformed to the life of the one who came to save me.

A Journey of Faith, a Journey of Purpose, a Journey of Discipleship.

That the Scripture might be fulfilled And we know that all that happens to us is working for our good if we love God and are fitting into his plans. 29 For from the very beginning God decided that those who came to him—and all along he knew who would—should become like his Son, so that his Son would be the First, with many brothers.” – Romans 8:28-29

This is not a post to invoke pity or attention but to remind us all of our greater purpose. Jesus’ birth, life and death was not just for us to celebrate Christmas or Easter or share Bible stories (nothing is wrong with those). It was for a greater purpose of saving us from our selfish nature and conforming us to the image of Christ (vs 29, above); and until we fulfill this purpose, we have not yet arrived at God’s destination for our lives. 

2017 is not the end of the Journey, it is just the beginning… 

… Have a Purposeful New Year!

#Diviboy #chumchum #daddyslittledude #minime

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  1. Hmmmmm… Tinuke! So blessed by your touching and inspiring write-up. No pity about that ugly side of 2017, but rather thanking God for the grace and courage He has given (is giving and will still give) you. 2018 is your year of NEW BEGINNING. Shalom!

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    1. Thank you very much sir. So good to hear from you. It’s just understanding that God indeed had our lives in his hands and trusting him to knit it out as beautifully as only Him can do. My love to Testimony, mum and sister…

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  2. Oh dear PSA, I join you in celebrating your dear Son’s life! This is such wonderful truth that only God could have placed in your life.
    You may not know but your words comfort mebin my own different but challenging journey. And as we near the end of this year, this helps me focus on the sovereignty of God and how truly He works all things out for our good.
    Maybe one day, I’ll share my story.
    Thanks for sharing. May you be comforted!
    Happy New Year.

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    1. Dear Eri, it brings me great joy that God is using these words to comfort you. Indeed we must trust him with the process of conforming us and when we have been tried, we shall come forth as gold. Thank you so much for reading and sharing your thoughts. Have a purposeful new year

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  3. How you and Tunde have handled this season of your life is worth emulating! To God be the glory. I’m grateful to God for how you have found and have continued to find strength in the Word of God. May God continue to strengthen your faith in Jesus name.

    As it is written: What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived, the things God has prepared for you both because you love the Lord
    ‭‭(1 Corinthians‬ ‭2:9‬ ‭NIV‬‬)

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  4. Dear Tinu,
    When I got the news of Divine’s relocation, I I had so many unanswered questions but your enduring faith and steadfast trust in God’s purpose kind of put my heart at ease. Reading this from you has further made me know that you know whose you are and are confident of his purpose.
    God bless you.

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    1. My dearest Sis, all our questions may not be answered now but over and above that is the understanding of God’s greater purpose and fitting into it. You surely know how he knits the good and bad to a perfect plan. So in him lies our confidence. God bless you sis

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  5. I haven’t been in touch for a while but with you two, i have no doubt as to how all panned out. I am glad you have each other and God definitely has Christ’s model in you. Divine indeed was blessed to have ypu as parents as were you both. Love you guys more.
    Selah!

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  6. Beautifully written dear. This experience is very humbling and inspiring. May God continue to comfort you both. I’m particularly overjoyed that you saw God’s purpose through this all because it is in this that you can be truly comforted and experience that peace that transcends human understanding. Divine, thanks for making mummy and daddy smile with joy. Though you left too soon, we are glad that you came. Keep resting with our heavenly father…

    1 Thessalonians 4:13 Now we do not want you to be uninformed, believers, about those who are asleep [in death], so that you will not grieve [for them] as the others do who have no hope [beyond this present life].

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  7. When I saw Divine’s 3months old picture a few days ago, I thought…what a miracle! I didn’t know he had transitioned. Regardless, I still think his life was a miracle and it was a long and fulfilled one. He brought you joy and showed us all the awesome wonder of our God; His unsearchableness and Divinity. I won’t say sorry but I thank God for His sweet Holy Spirit who is obviously doing a great job with you. Jesus would be proud of the words you wrote up there. Sending lots of hugs your way.

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    1. There is no crime in that my sister, it is only human for our hearts to be heavy and even grief but we do so with a different understanding. I miss him so much sometimes it’s like my heart is ripping and I just cry out to my Father who holds us all together and his strength comes through. I am but a weakling, strengthened by Faith. Thanks sis

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    2. You having a pre-knowledge of the short purposeful life that Divine has and God helping you to hold on to Him through it is magical, thank you for agreeing with God and trusting Him unconditionally. I love you, thank you for being a vessel unto honour. God bless your heart and home.

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  8. Hugs, Tinuke. Thank God for carrying you guys through it all. And how you were and are still able to celebrate the miracle of his birth and health through his sojourn here is remarkable. He is home now with our heavenly daddy. I celebrate your strength and courage which our Father gave you. Happy new year!

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  9. Oh my God Tinuke I’m so sorry. But there is a sense of peace in the whole story. Like God chose to trust you with this Child and he was sent for a purpose. God will strengthen you and provide beauty for ashes. Take heart dear and thanks for the courage to share this!

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  10. Tinu, I covet your faith and trust in our Father. I’ve learnt so much from your 15weeks with Divine. May God compensate you with double this year. Have a testimony-filled year!

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  11. Tinuke, just read the piece tonight at work and my handkerchief is full… thanks for sharing, I have a deeper understanding of the times in relations to God as the controller in Chief…. My dear, u don’t know how much u have helped to lift my faith…. God bless you and am glad to inform you that you will have Divine and Delight soon.

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  12. God bless you PSA. There’s no pity but faith, admiration and love for you and your hubby. God knew you were the best for Divine. Thank you for trusting in the process and not losing grip of your faith. Keep shining gloriously.

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